One Year memorial
In Loving Memory
of Joseph (Joey) Wayne Abdulaziz ......
written by Joey's dad and read at the JSF & RCD 2004 Conference in St. Louis
Missouri
Memorial Ceremony
My name is Mike Abdulaziz. I am Joey’s Dad. And you all know my wife
Michele, Joey’s mom. A few weeks ago I was watching The Wizard of Oz.
When the four main characters went back to the Wizard to get their
rewards for doing away with the Wicked Witch, I realized, I wish I were
the Tin Man. The Wizard said to the Tim Man, in regards to his missing
heart, " You don’t know how lucky you are not to have one. Hearts will
never be practical until they can be made unbreakable. " It’s been a
little over a year, and my heart is still broken in a million pieces. I
miss Joey every second of every hour of every day. With all that unspeakable pain I would choose to do it all again,
every bit of it. The reason is simply, that my life is better because
Joey was in it. So, that is what I want to speak about, not the pain,
but the joy and the thankfulness. One of the things I am thankful for is that we don’t have any "I
wish"’s. There is no "I wish we did this with Joes" or "I wish we took
Joes here or there". When Joey was hospitalized in 1998 we knew that
time was precious. The three of us would spend as much time together as
possible. We were not going to have any "I wish"’s. Oh, I complained
when I had to turn off the Laker’s championship games to watch Toy
Story. But, the truth is, there was no place I would rather be, than
watching Toy Story with Michele and Joey while Joey talked to Woody and
Buzz. It was perfect. The song that played during the slide show a little wile ago was
called "Now and Forever" by Carole King. We played it at Joey’s funeral.
It said so much about our time with Joey. One line in particular says,"
We are the lucky ones, some people never get to do all we got to do."
That was really true for us. Joey packed a lot into his nine years. He
traveled all over the U.S., From Baltimore to Honolulu. He swam with
Dolphins; met Astronauts saw a Space Shuttle launch and so much more.
Thoughts, of our trips to Florida to see Dr. Maria will always bring a
smile to my face, especially thinking of Joes smiling at the fireworks
at Epcot Center. There were times when I was having a really bad day at work, and then
I’d spend an hour and a half in traffic. I would be in a bad mood by the
time I got home. Then I would open the door, Joey would look up at me,
smile, say something in his language. I didn’t understand the words, but
I understood the meaning. He was happy to see me and was glad I was
home. Instantly I forgot about the rest of the day. I would get on the
floor with him and we would wrestle and play and we would both laugh
continuously. Then Michele would come in and she would pretend she was
mad at us. She would say, "My boys are making too much noise." Then she
would jump in and the three of us would be rolling around together, and
all of us were laughing, Joey, loudest of all. Then maybe before going
to bed I would put on my Cat in the Hat hat and read Dr. Seuss to Joes
while he listened intently to every word. When I went to bed I would
sleep peacefully because, after all, it was a good day. Joey had the
magic to make it that way. Joey changed us in so many ways. Through him we learned about things
like patience, commitment, focus and perspective. We became stronger
every day. We found out we were much stronger than we ever imagined.
Most importantly we learned about love from Joey. It is hard to explain,
there were never any games, just pure love. He never walked talked or
played ball like other kids, but no one ever loved or was loved more
than Joey. The Beatles were right. "All You Need is Love" I never
understood that until Joey was born. We know people that enter their kids in beauty pageants. I can tell
you without hesitation, that I have seen more beauty at these
conferences over years and in this room tonight. It scares me to think
that I might not have recognized it if Joey had not been born. Some
people see beauty in flowers or mountains or beaches. I do too, but I
see more. I said it in Joey’s eulogy; we are much better people today
than we were before he was born. Joey brought out the best in us. There are so many more things we are thankful for, but this is the
last I will talk about now. We are thankful for all of you. Without Joey
we would never have met any of you. At the five conferences we have
attended we have made so many friends, many who we will talk to for the
rest of our lives. The cards, letters and messages we received after
Joey passed away from so many of you, meant more to us than you can
possibly imagine. We know people are hesitant to bring up Joey to us. If anyone wants
to talk to us about Joey please don’t hesitate. You won’t cause us any
additional pain. He is after all our favorite subject. |